Calm, but Wild

I haven’t felt this way in a long time.

People might say its not a reason to feel this depressed. Cos i don’t even know. Cos I am just assuming!

BUT i’m scared. I can’t afford to lose.

I just want a chance. Cos i know it will work out!

I hate the bloody word ‘HOPE. F$#@ing screws around with so many things.

I just need a shoulder to lean on and cry now. Talk things out. Understand. Believe. Move on.

I don’t understand.

And i am bloody depressed.